i am at odds with myself. i hate being a gal at times as we get all emo and all. why can't i just exit from the entire thing with sass and say goodbye to it once and for all. leave with grace and all that. i hate the fact that your actions and behaviour has such a big impact on me. the pain and agony is excruciating. i simply have no idea what the hell i am doing. stay away from my life for a while.