it has been a while, and i still feel like packing my bags, and just vanished from everything i am familiar with. disappeared from the world that i know and have some "me" time to myself. time where i can remove myself and mope around all i want because this is what i feel like doing for a long time. is it because i am tired from school or could it be something else? i just wanna be free from any emotional baggage and get rid of any burden.
however, this seems like near impossible as the exams are creeping around the corner. one silly word known as "responsibility" prevents me from harbouring such thoughts. wonder if i can say that for an interview when i am suppose to sell myself as responsible. things such as "oh, my sense of responsibility can be demonstrated by the fact that i persisted on studying though i am emotionally/physically exhausted. i am willing to sacrifice my sanity in my pursuit of getting decent grades so as to fulfill my obligations." i think the interviewer might just die on the spot.
guess the only way out is to artificially induce some form of motivation in my life. like trying to remember my goals etc.
