having a quarter life crisis! been depressed over silly stuff. spent my whole afternoon glooming away. just rot on the sofa and waited for time to idle past. normally, this will have been a pleasant thing to do. BUT i guess i have been too used to being busy to numb myself, that this whole experience seems so weird out.
i started questioning myself on my interaction with others and my daily encounters the past few months. seems like i dun really have a clear idea on how i have been leading my life. feels like time just flew by.
in addition, i realise i am a pretty insecure person and i have no need to add on to my insecurities. and the only way for that to happen is to stay out of unnecessary trouble. but then again, that is a coward method of running away. though i warm up to people easily, at times, most of it feels pretty empty on the inside. seemed to have accumulated many hi-bye friends over the year. i am glad to have a group of close knitted friends, if not i think i will just die from all the plasticness.
most importantly, i do not want to compromise on my own identity. i want to be myself and not try/attempt to impress others. coz if there is a person who will like me, it will be to like me for myself. not some persona that i have assume. defeats the purpose.
hahaha, and most importantly, its great to see swee and py tdy. drove away all the gloom and sadness! but sadly, ky not free! hahaha but never mind, coz seeing her soon on fri. =) hanging out with the gang feels like going back home. the feeling of familarity, knowing that you are accepted for who you are. the warmth that you get is exceptional and irreplacable. step out of the house with mild depression but came home with a smile plastered on my face. thanks for chasing away the tuesday blues!!!! love ya guys!!!
