i had a great time. but all is but a dream. and it shall remain as a dream. i am too frail for that and i do not pin high hopes as i am a failure in this aspect of my life.
perhaps its time to numb myself with work and follow my normal routine. this is the only way where i can remind myself that its nothing but a beautiful dream. and things remain beautiful that way, where everything remains intact. i think after a few times, i will gradually learn the art of self-denial or illusion.