i am having numerous negative vibes and being the emotional creature that i am, i need to clear these vibes first before starting on my learning journal.
i am rejected by SMU ambassador. it has been a long time since i am being rejected for stuff. haha, perhaps it could be due to the fact that it has been a long time since i participated in such stuff. has been pretty anti-social these days. i think i am unhappy over the rejection more than the fact that i desperately wanna be an ambassador. but well, i should have saw it coming. though i have the grades, i have ZERO cca in the school. since i have been bumming around in school, what kind of ambassador i will have make. well, so it kinds of explain the rejection process.
i guess the feeling of being rejected sucks!!! it kinds of hurt the delicate ego that one has. but of coz, it will not crush me and makes me think i am super lousy. but then, this kind of rejection often makes one wonder: am i really that bad? well, i guess its an opportunity for me to reflect on myself and not think of myself as that superior? perhaps there are certain aspects in my life that should see a change and a new improvement. guess that's what life is all about!!!
BUT the good thing is that min and huan got through and are granted an interview!!! hope they will successfully get pass the interview. then they will be able to tell me how the ambassador thingy is like in future!!!
okay i am feeling better =) will get back to my LTB learning journal!!! i guess blogging does help as it helps in making one feel better by expressing your emotions. i am such a creature. never like keeping my unhappiness in me and prefer to let it all out. =)
