i am dying from feeling useless. everything i am doing for this project just seems to be wrong. nobody says anything or scolded me or screamed at me. But i can't help feeling useless for this project!!! maybe i am too sensitive or wad!!
but in my life, i have always feel that as long as you put in your utmost effort, its sufficient! and from week 5 ownwards, i have been putting in lotsa lotsa effort. but each time, i do anything, it just feels wrong and unappreciated. what's wrong with me? i am always confident of my work as long as i put in effort. it makes me feel useless and redundant.
like for the quiz... i was suddenly thrown the task of the doing the quiz. i did not protest or anything though i know i had no idea how to do a quiz on healthy vs abusive relationships. so using other prototypes, i attempted to do the plan the quiz. writing the question nor giving the answers is not difficult, the most irritating bit is giving the wrong answers. and what's the comment given by my TA regarding the quiz. the quiz is too common sense. like wat the hell am i supposed to do about it. this is a morals workshop, not an academic quiz. how am i suppose to make it uncommon sense. and i have squeezed everything out of my creative juices already. please give constructive comments like telling me how to make it less common sense. not telling me its too common sense and do something about it.
i think i am going crazy over this project. i have no idea how to react and behave already. its like playing mind games and i am losing. i am being pushed to my max with all the uncertainity.
i feel restricted and cannot work to my best. i am more inclined to work in flexible circumstances.
haiz, these all just my thoughts about the project. there is something wrong with me and them but i cannot identify it! we seems to be okay when we are doing the project, able to joke and everything. but deep down this is how i feel exactly. please, tell me i am not psychotic or suffering from split personalities!!
p.s. just ignore this post. i needed to let it out to concentrate on QM. good luck man.
